Can u come back for me....

can u tell me what is ma fault.why u leave me in between the way. u always promise me that u never leave me and now u leave me. what is ma fault can anyone tell me.Is ma fault is that i love u very much or ma fault no one understand me expect u.U teach me so many aspect of life then why u not teach me how to live without u.How easily u say "find me in ur best friend" but u never tell me how. i make so many best friends but i never able to find u.Many best friend who love me lot who ready for me to do or die but i dont know why i still miss u. U understand anything before i say but why not ma best friend to whom i love.U told me that what u teaching make ma life better but everyday ma life becoming hell.U told me that i will be happy and everyone with me is proud on me, but everyday i will be more said and found to much pain in me.U told me how to express feeling but why not u told me how to express ur pain.i cant able to handle this pain. Grandma can u come back. plz comeback for me. i need u.

JEENA NA SIKHYA APNA BINA.......

har pal roota hu, phir bhe hasta hu,
har pal harta hu ,phir bhe hamesha jeet taa hu
har pal marta hu phir bhe har pal zinda rahta hu
kuch nahi tha zindgi me bass teri alwaaa
mar kar jina sikhya tune,har pal roota hua hansna sikhya tu ne
harrr kar bhe jeet ke dekhna sikhya tuna,
sar utha ke chalna sikhya tune
parrrr
kabhi apna bina jeena nahi sikhya tune..........

EK DIN BICHAAD JATA HAI KUCH DOST..

Milta hai kuch dost zindgi me,
karta hai hum un se kuch baat ,hoti hai kuch molaqata,
aur ban jata hai kuch yadaa,
phir ek din achank bichaad jata hai wo dost,
har pal har lamha yaad ata hai wo dost,
na jana koun sa wo waqt tha, jis pal hum bichaada tha,
par jasi bhe waqt tha ek jakham de gaya dil me........

KUCH DEKA THA SAPNAA...

kuch dekaa tha sapnaa,laga tha kuch apna
jab bhe un ko dekta tha, maan he maan muskrata tha,
kabhi to honga wo sach, easi kuch lagta tha
par ma bhul gaya tha, sapnaa kabhi kabhi sach hota hai,
har kise ka har sapnaa sach nahi hota,
aur mera kabhi koi nahi hota,
phir bhe sapnaa dekta hu, aur dil se har baar kheta hu,
kabhi koi to sapnaa sach hoga, kabhi koi mera apna bhe hoga.

hota hai sapna sach yahe soch ke dekta hu,
kabhi to koi hoga apna ye socha ke hasta hu,
udas nahi hu parr ha gum me jurr hu,
khuda pe hai yakee tabhi to abhi tak zinda hu


udas ho nahi sakta udasi chera pe jhalkti hai,
jise dek ke kuch apne me udas chaa jati hai,
sirf gum kar sakta hu kyu ke gum ko he chupa sakta hu duniya se,
jeena ko to sab jeee leta hai bass marna he muskil hai...,
vishwass hai muja apni kismat par, tabhi to abhi tak umeed kayam hai,
ummed hai ek din koi to samjh ga, kabhi to kaha ga
na kahu ma kuch to wo he apna app samja lega.

kuch pal mohabbat ke sath.......

kuch hansin lamha,
kuch hasin pal,
betya hua kuch wo samya,
jaisa gujjar gaya ho saal,
sansa tham se gayi thi,
samya ruk sa gaya tha,
dhakan ka bhe koi pata na tha,
mohabbat ke saath betya hua wo kuch pal,
sari zindgi ke liya ek hansin yaada de gaya,
ab to ma yahui he muskra raha hu aur us pal
ko yaad kiya jaa raha hu.....

BIRTHDAY NIGHT,....................

Sometime we are in crowd but still we are alone. When i was child ma grandmother always tell me "when u are alone never think u are alone, just rember me and all the beautiful memories u have with anyone.Never feel that u are alone its kill u every second internally." I said grandma why u saying this u always with me.Grandma say yes ma son i always with u.
18sept 2007.In early morning near about grandma say son come fast we have to go to temple.i wake up and get ready for temple then we both go to temple and ma grand mom read holy rhyme i don't listen too much bcz she saying very low.Then we both came back. on way grandma ask me son what if u one day found yourself alone.I said i cannot be alone bcz u always with me and i smile.My grandma smile too and say suppose i was out somewhere and u are alone, then i start thinking and ask ma grandma hey u never tell me what then i do.Grandma then tell listen ma son "NO ONE CAN WITH U FOREVER BCZ WE ALL ARE MORTALS ONE DAY WE ALL HAVE TO DIE EVEN U ALSO.ITS DOSN'T MATTER HOW MUCH TIME WE SPEND BUT ITS MATTER HOW WE SPEND OUR TIME.IN UR LIFE MAKE BEST FRIENDS AS U CAN BCZ A FRIENDS RELATION IS THE ONE WHO ALWAYS WITH U ANYTIME.AND ONE MORE THING TODAY IS UR BIRTHDAY ACCORDING TO CUSTOM I HAVE TO PRESENT U GIFT BUT SON CAN I EXPECT ONE GIFT FROM U" i said yes grandma u can but what can i present u i don't have money to buy a gift for u.Grandma told me nothing i need from u just one promise. I said yes grandma i can tell me what u wann from me.Grandma say "SON PROMISE ME IN LIFE U NEVER CRY WHEN U ARE SAD OR HURT, ALWAYS SHARE WITH UR FRIENDS, THEY ALWAYS REMIND TO U THAT ME WITH U TO GUIDE,TEACH AND CONSOLE MY SON.U KNOW WHEN U CRY I ALWAYS CONSOLE U BUT TODAY I TELL U TRUTH THAT WHEN I SEE U CRY MY HEART CRY, MY SON PROMISE ME IN UR LIFE U NEVER CRY." and i say "I PROMISE GRANDMA" but where is ma gift then ma grandma reply son if u see i gave u one of the best gift in ur life if form of ur promise to me. I smile and say yes grandma and then grandma kiss me on ma forehead and say happy birthday ma son and i also smile and gave a tight hug to grandma.we reach home and i spend ma whole day with ma grandma watching tv playing games.At the night when i was with ma grandma on the roof watching sky and lot of stars in sky.I ask ma grandma that what she plan to gave a gift for me and then ma grandma smile and gave me a tight hug and say that was ma last gift and she start smiling and i wont understand what she say and again start watching sky with her.
13nov 2007 ma grandma died and i understand what she wann say to me on ma birthday night....................

WITH EVERY HEART BEAT.....

Ma world u are
ma happiness u are
day night i thinking of u
i pray for u
i am here pray for ma god for u........that u always be mine

u teach me love
u teach me how to live
u are ma shadow
without u ma life in darkness
u are come as light in ma life
every time i thinking of u
i wann spend ma life with u

u are in ma mind
u are in ma dream
u are in ma breath
u are so wonderful feeling
when ever i take ur name i was feeling that good
in ur love i forget the world

when i am alone i was thinking of u
when i silent i was listening to u
where i go.....i found u
i rember each moment i was spent with u..

ma heart was beating for u
and with every beating...ma say i love u i love u i love u...

dil rota hai aur ma hasta hu......

aj roo utha hai dil, na jana kyu.
ek azeb sa dard hai, kise ke dur chala jana ka eshass hai..
koi tha jo muja se durr chala gaya,
par kabhi wo mera sab se kareb tha.
us ke janna se roo utha dil,
par phir bhe ma roya nahi,
kyu ke usa mera rona ne nafrat thi,
is liya ma roota nahi, par ye nadan dil aj bhe un lamho ke yaad kar ke rota hai aur ma hasta hu.

I LOVE U.........

From the moment i saw u from the moment i look into your eyes
ther something about you
i knew i knew
that you were once in life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and i know i lucky iam to have you
bcz i have seen rainbow that could take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun on any given day
and when its comes to shooting stars i have seen a few
but i never seee anything
as beautiful as u
i cant believe i have u
i cant believe that youre here in ma life
i have been waiting a lifetime for u
and i have dreamed about u..
picture in ma mind who i would seee
but i never imagined just how beautiful you be
and
i always love u

BEAUTY OF WOMAN..........

Is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries,
Or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman
Must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman
Is not a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman
Is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring she lovingly gives,
The Passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman with passing years --
only grows and grows

MUSHKIL THA .....

Mushkil Tha Har Lamha Tujhse Juda Rehna,
Mumkin Tha Bas Itna Ke Tere Bin Marjana.

Kia Kahoon Main Janam;
Tha Kaisa Mera Aalam?!

Seene Se Laga Ke Teri,
Tasveer Ko Akele Mein Rona.

Mushkil Tha Ashkon Ko Chupana,
Mumkin Tha Tere Bin Marjana.

Ab Jo Tum Aa Gaye To,
Rahat Mili Hai Dil Ko.

Ab Mujhko Sun Lo Aae Janam,
Tanha Kabhi Na Rehne Dena.

Mushkil Tha Tanha Rehna,
Mumkin Tha Tere Bin Marjana.

CAUGHT.....

Caught in the breakers, in the air I fly,
Towards wild white surf kissing shimmering sand.
Wind snaps the sail taught, the waves I defy,
Yet I'm drawn towards the line where water meets land,
For we only know one by the other,
The black words defined by the white borders,
As indifferent nature is man's mother,
Chaos emboldens the rarer order.
And out on that board I feel so alone,
In the blue, greeted by but reflection,
It's by nature our uniqueness is known,
Fleeting beauty caught by time's direction.
Words are but the immortal part of me,
Struggling from the fleeting thought to break free.

A friend who's always there

If I could catch a rainbow

I would do it just for you

and share with you its beauty

On the days you're feeling blue.

If I could build a mountain

You could call your very own

A place to find serenity,

A place to be alone.

If I could take your troubles

I would toss them in the sea,

But all these things I'm finding

are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain

Or catch a rainbow fair,

But let me be what I know best,

A friend who's always there.