WHOSE FAULT.........

Yestarday while travelling from bus something happen which made me to think that sometime people dont have any fault but they have to suffer.The accident which happen affect me very deeply and bring lot of question in ma mind.
The journey started in bus.A private bus which in full of mens womens and children.When i enter in bus all the seats alreday taken by persons,so i have to do ma journey while stand.I was standing near to back door, i was watching outside diffrent villages,people and farms suddenly i look inside toward the enviorment of the buss full of peoples just like a fish market.While watching whole side of buss suddenly ma eyes stop on one boy who was with mom sitting on the fourth row from right window side.I cant able to trun ma eyes from him, he was of around 4-6year and his smile bring a strange smile in ma heart and face.I feel like i was lost in him and his smile. His mom was talking to another women and he was on side of window and playing with himself and watching outside and sometime do byebye to outside people. i was lost in him so much and sudenly i rember ma old days when i travel in bus, i was same like him playing with himself watching outside view and watching what going in bus.
I was lost in him so much that i dont bother what going nearby me. His smile bring lot of joy and remind me of ma childhood jounery in bus.Suddenly a scream come out from his mouth.I will back into me and suddenly i see all the people around him stand and make a circle around him.Bus was stop now and i was still in ma place.now his mom start screaming i was worry to know what happen and then i walk toward him after crossing that circle which was around near to him when i see him ma soul was badly hurt to see that boy lost his one hand.While he was saying bye to outside person a bus come from opposite cross from so close that its crush boy hand.Bus was stop now.Now His mom was crying like mad but i dont bother her i keep watching boy few minutes back he is laughing and his smile make ma heart to smile and now suddely his smile convert into scream.His scream is like lighting in ma heart.he was crying continously and i feel like he was asking some question to all of us.I fell like he asking to us that what was his fault so he lost his one hand.Is this is ma fault that in watching him i lost and dont see that his hands was outside,or either his mom fault who was busy in talking to another women, or either both bus driver fault. No matter whoes fault but boy has to suffer for his whole life.
This accident bring so many question in ma mind and i feel like with every crying he still asking question " what was ma fault and why this happen to me".In life there sre some question whoes answer can't be found and sometime we have to suffer with no cause.
I dont know what happen with him later and how he face this new life but his screaming put so many question on ma mind.
And i still dont able to find whoes fault is this......

EK KHWAB ME BASS CHALA JA RAHA HU...

ek azeb se kashamkash hai,
ek azeb sa eshass hai
kabi lagta hai ke zindgi ek zinda lash hai,
aur kabhi eshass hota hai kuch sansa abhi baki hai,
har tarf dokha he dokha hai, phir bhe muja umeed hai,
umeed hai ke koi to hai jo ek din muja se mila,
jab nahi hoga koi nazro ke samne to wo band nazro se dika,
jis ka eshass muja akelapan me bhe akela nahi mashu nahi hona de,
ji ke ek muskhrahat ke liya barr barr dil tarsa,
ji ke hansna se dil me ek azeeb sa eshss utha,
jab kabhi wo sath ho mera to duniya jannt se laga,
aur us ke chala jana se duniya phir se virran laga.
na jana kab us chera se mulakat hogi,
aur kab meri duniya me khusiya aya ge
ise khawb me bass chal ja raha hu.
apna ap he muskrata hua bass chal ja raha hu..

aj dil udas hai, na jana kay baat hai........

aj dil udas hai, na jana kay baat hai

kahi koi chala gaya, ya fhir koi bhul gaya,

na jana kay baat hai par aj dil udas hai.

aj yau he machal utha hai dil, ik azeeb sa eshass hai,

na jana kay baat hai, aj dil udas hai.

ek azebb se dard, kise ke bichadna ka eshass hai

na jana kay baat hai, aj dil udas hai.

dil dhadakta hai phir bhe zindgi ek zinda lash hai

na jana kay baat hai aj dil udas hai.

har tarf tera chera, par phir bhe lagta ek khab hai.

na jana kay baat hai, aj dil udas hai

koi nahi koi nahi hai na pass na durr bass,

ek umeed hai jo muja bas leya ja raha hai

na jana kab tak phir bhe ek umeed hai.

na jana kay baat hai aj dil udas hai.

AJ ROO UTHA HAI DIL,

NA JANA KAY BAAT HAI.

EK AZEB SA DARD AUR,

THODA SA PAYYAR HAI,

KAHI KOI CHALA GAYA,

YA PHIR BHUL GAYA,

NA JANA KAY BAAT HAI,

AJ DIL UDAS HAI

HAVE TO WALKING ALONE........

I am Walking alone on the road, dont know when this dark night will end, when i see a ray of hope. Dont know when, but i keep moving while carrying lot of memories some good mostly bad, rembering some few faces who say " IAM WITH U" and rembering those faces also who say "NO ONE WITH U" and "U ARE NOTHING". Many say u are good and understand us and many say u never understand anyone. Some say u cannot trust anyone many say why u trust everyone. Dont know who right who wrong but as i decide I have to keep moving. No regret from life and god for what going on with me,why me misunderstood by other, no regret from anyone, bcz i know no one understand what exactly I AM.

I have to move on carrying those memories and also have to find.......
A RAY OF HOPE...

I will love you as long as I live from this moment...........

Do swear that I'll always be there. I’d give anything and everything and I will always care.Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse, I will love you with every beat of my heart. From this moment life has begun. From this moment you are the oneRight beside you is where I belong. From this moment on. From this moment I have been blessed I live only for your happiness. And for your love I'd give my last breath.
From this moment on I give my hand to you with all my heart Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start,You and I will never be apart My dreams came true because of you. From this moment as long as I live I will love you, I promise you this, There is nothing I wouldn't give from this moment on. You're the reason I believe in love And you're the answer to my prayers from up above All we need is just the two of us My dreams came true because of you. From this moment as long as I live I will love you, I promise you this, There is nothing I wouldn't give from this moment
I will love you as long as I live from this moment on

BE YOU EVEN.............

Be You Even
When we refused to pass who are really for the other ones, it is our image that they start to know and to love or not to appreciate, and no that that we are truly. Frequently the people are afraid of the judgment of the other ones and they prefer “to follow the tide” of what to contradict. Maybe be afraid of revealing for thinking won't be accepted as healthy, or then for not to hurt and to hurt the other ones, they prefer to act as if they were in agreement with everything. They say yes when inwardly they not think. And grows up like this a false and erroneous image of himself. But the life is not a stage and we are not all actors that, after the show, they say goodbye to your character.If we make that created in turn of us a hypocritical world.I doesn’t say here that should be playing our truths without caring with the people's reaction. We are not an island and less still the center of the world. Though, has moment and middle for everything in the life. The important is the honesty. A same thing can be said in different ways and to cause different impacts in that that hears. It is what called euphemism and that doesn't do badly to anybody. A thing is to say “that color is horrible in you” and other “I think that would be much better in you.” If we didn't agree with an idea or a person, there are ways to expose what thought without we be unpleasant. We are what are and we thought what thought. The people that love owe us to love us for that that we are and not for the that we pretended to be. They will accept us in spite of our flaws if they notice that we are sincere and if they love us truly. Any that is the situation, be you even Sincere, limpid, transparent. Maybe you are not the ideal for everybody, but you will know that those that love you, they love deeply and of the whole heart. The true friends should not be obligatorily the whole time of agreement, but they owe to learn to respect and to accept the difference of the other, because they are exactly the differences that enrich us.

SHE TAKE THE EXPRESSION OF..........

She takes the expression of a flower, the voice of a bird, and the soul as a full moon,Of an april, her words have heat, and winter cold, her skin is hard as the tree, which flogs the wind...And she has, the heart of poet, of big child and of man child, Capaz of loving with delirium, capable of sinking in the sadness, Since she has, the heart of poet, of vagabond and of beggar Y like that I have known it, and this way me like that she is, That has, the poet's heart … Has the arrogance of the Sun, candid look, Her skin of snow does fire to itself, near my, is friend and faithful lover, sees the stars, walks close to my dreaming, with beautiful things...

And it she has, the heart of poet, of big child and of man child, Capaz of loving with delirium, capable of sinking in the sadness, Since she has, the poet's heart

WHEN U ARE SAD...............

When you are sad, I will dry your tears
When you are scared, I will comfort your fears
When you need love, my heart I will share
When you are sick, for you I will care
You will feel my love when we are apart
Knowing that nothing will change my heart
When you are worried, I will give you hope
When you are confused, I will help you cope
When you are lost, and can’t see the light
My love will be a beacon, shining ever so bright
This is my vow, one that I pledge till the end
For you above all are my wife and best friend
These words I have written, speak of my love for you
From my lips these words spoken, shall always ring true
God has blessed me, and with your hand in mine
Both of our hearts, will forever intertwine
Into all lives, falls pain and sorrows,
I promise together, we will meet all tomorrows
Happy in marriage, honor and love
blessed in unity by God above

LIFE ALWAYS GAVE U TWO OPTION........

Life always gives you two options,if there is a second door,can bet that there is a window,or a roof that can open.Therefore, you can include a rose,feel its incomparable perfume,lose yourself with the beauty of colors,and get going by the magic of flowers.Or feel the thorn and complain of pain,regret the leaves up.
You can cry for not having received more roses,or even today, someone to offer ...
Even the darkest night,can turn a miserable match and illuminate the street.
Facing the pain deep,can comfort with a gesture, a word.Near the end, we can find our beginning,and where everything seems impossible,remains in the encounter with the divine faith,where God, who dwells in us, answered,
Son, I'm here,
I am Love.
Two choices, always!
That love is always your first choice